Holding Back and Letting Go
Lately as I've been moving forward to get my temple recommend renewed, old problems, old doubts, and old pains have resurfaced. I know they will hold me back. I know this. In particular an event that occurred at my high school graduation keeps coming up. I sing, and so I was a member of the choir in high school. Of course, at graduation we were singing. The song had multiple solos in it and the last solo I was going for was between me and another girl, who was a great singer. We rock, paper, scissored for it. She won and I lost. After the practice, I went after her and suggested we sing it together. She actually agreed, which is something I hadn't expected. The problem was, no one else in the choir knew, and we had never practiced the part together. Graduation comes and we are singing. We both step down for the solo, look at each other and miss the cue. So I went for it. I don't recall if she sang. I don't think she did. But I've felt bad ever since. I stole her m