In His Steps

I'm coming to the conclusion that I'm not very self-motivated. That worries me. I don't like to do anything alone and I usually need to be prodded to do anything that doesn't yield rewards right now, such as posting something online, when it'll be weeks before anyone says anything or wants to buy it (speaking about ebay). Receiving advice I cannot immediately act on: "oh you should call such and such group, they'll help" after hours. Thanks. By the time I can call, I forget. I've never been in shape. I've been in better  shape, but I've never been thin, I've never been on a major sports team (by major I mean soccer, baseball, water polo, etc.), and I've never been in shape--ever. I do like to mountain bike and I do like to swim. I've worked out at a gym and I don't mind that either. But I don't like doing anything by myself! For one thing, with mountain biking and swimming in the ocean, there's a safety issue. And ...

Wow, the hits just keep on coming! I will roll with them, I swear! Last night I discovered I wouldn't  be starting work for yet another week.  At least. So, after an email asking for compensation or someone else to fill in on the training (my trainer has to work off-site), and then getting both options shot down this morning, I woke up a bit before seven am with diarrhea, which quickly evolved into going at both ends for the better part of the day. I had all of three crackers to eat until just now. It went around my friends' place a week ago, so I'm not surprised it happened and I guess it's just as well I didn't start work today, as I would've ended up sick by the side of the road before I'd gotten very far. So, lying around all day has further messed up my sleep schedule, but I feel better now. I am drinking some pedialyte stuff and nibbling crackers with my tension headache meds. My neck is all kinds of messed up now. Maybe I'll get real adventurous...

I haven't really had much to say lately. I've been treating these last two weeks between jobs as a vacation, getting my mind in order (and my house) so that I wouldn't be a wreck with this new job and I'd be ready to learn the new things. While I'd been hoping to just jump right in, perhaps it really was better for my mental health not to. The cramps came back again a few days ago, right on schedule, but they were much easier to weather. I only took one Vicodin and had a blessing from my guy friends, and I think it was mostly from sitting in a hard wood chair for game on the first day of having the painful things that really set me off. The next morning, nothing. Oh a little sore perhaps, but no cramps, no pain. One good night's sleep and poof. Gone. I'm beginning to think they are stress related. I mean, really. Day after Thanksgiving and Christmas Eve, both of which were days I was working/supposed to work? But the day before I'd been bouncing on clo...

Well, the last week has been amazing. I mean, I had it completely off! This coming week, too! It's giving me time to get over being sick and rest from in between my jobs. Mentally, it's been wonderful and will continue to be so. Monetarily? Not so much, but I think I can scrape by. I'm going to visit my aunt on Thursday (technically she's my greataunt, but meh) and she's going to help me and Rosslyn learn to sew on a machine for our dolls. She's crocheted gowns for her dolls, so she's totally willing to do this. Mwahahahahaha, I didn't even know she liked dolls that much until this past Christmas. So I start my new job officially on Monday. Whatever issue they had seems to have been worked out. Unfortunately, these days off have been getting my sleep schedule all kinds of messed up, so I'm gonna try and get to bed at a decent hour (midnight) and wake up before 11 the next day. I has goals, yes. It's been storming since midnight last night, th...

A sort of vague resolution while I'm still sick: People are often unreasonable and self-centered. Forgive them anyway. If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. Be kind anyway. If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway. The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway. Give the world the best you have and it may never be good enough. Do good anyway. For you see, in the end, it's between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway. -Mother Theresa

It's the time of year for making new goals and resolutions, but I've been laid up with a cold, so I'm holding off on doing the truly in depth goal making until I can think straight and have time to sit down and do it. However, one of my obvious goals--getting a new job--I've already accomplished!! I just got the call this morning and they want me to start next week! I've been really counting on this job, as it has a wage increase, hour increase, no customers and no money handling, and --and this is the good part--it has full benefits  even if I'm part time. Despite my being sick, I'm trying hard not to dance around (mostly because I'd get dizzy and fall). So much for sleeping in; I'm wide awake now. I still need to quit my current job and I feel a bit bad giving him only one week notice and have to change next week's schedule around, but I need these benefits and I need them now. Hopefully they'll kick in before my cramps begin again, so I ...

Getting organized is time consuming, but I always seem to be very satisfied when I finish. My computer is currently getting wiped and reformatted, so I'm remaining on the borrowed laptop from Rosslyn for now, until my Zoro is ready (yes, I named my computer). It'll be like getting a whole new computer! Nothing beyond the OS already installed, so I get to finally put in my copy of CS2, and a couple of my games, but otherwise, brand spanking new! I'm excited! Rosslyn and I were on an absolute flurry of errand running today. We went to compare prices on Zoro first, got shelving units for our crafts and garage, bought cool calendars, then hit Fry's to take care of Zoro and get a few odds and ends there. We stopped for dinner and then went on a nice, gentle walk along the trails behind our development. Now I'm organizing my crafting supplies. They've been sitting in bags on the floor and it's starting to annoy me.